Absorbing Passion
by S. B. Douglass
My eyes closed as his hands slid over what was left of my face, and I knew
that they would never open again. It's funny, I still think of him as a man,
even though in the last week or so, he's begun to look quite feminine, and even
though he's surely not a human.
I was beyond panic as his hands slid over my lips and cheeks to my chin, then
up over my breasts, gently massaging me, giving me intense pleasure by merely
touching what little flesh I could still call my own, and then stopping, leaving
me alone with no sensation. I was separated from the world, alone with my
thoughts and memories.
My memories? At least I still had my own memory to draw on. I was Cheryl Anne
Smith, I knew that, and I held onto it as the one personal possession I still
owned. As long as I had my own name, my own identity, I was still there, no
matter how little of the rest of me remained.
How long had it been since I had a proper body? It seemed like only yesterday
that I'd gone out dancing, dressed to kill, and yet it must have been much
longer. I remembered too many sunsets, too many long talks with Ron. How long
had it been? What had happened to my sense of time?
How long had it been since I'd first set eyes on Ron as he stood by the edge
of the dance floor? He'd been wonderfully handsome, attracting me from the
moment I saw him. Had I really walked up to him and asked him to dance? He was a
perfect handsome stranger, and when he spoke he was hypnotically romantic. I'd
been so taken by him that I hadn't even asked his name until after I'd made up
my mind to try to get him into my bed.
Thinking about our meeting made me want to scream, or at least it made me
wish I could want to scream. There's too little of me left to actually scream,
and worse yet, there's not enough of me left to even want to scream. It had all
started so well. Perhaps I was foolish to bring him home with me when I left the
bar, but it felt so good at the time, and who'd have imagined what he really
was.
I'd gone out to pick up a guy and have a fun evening and some sex, and I
remember thinking as I let Ron into my apartment that I'd done very well. Ron
and I had sat down on my couch to talk, but we didn't talk for long. A
comfortable romantic silence had fallen over us as we looked into each others'
eyes. There's a turn of phrase that fits what we'd done, we'd undressed each
other with our eyes. We'd done it silently, and then we'd gone on to undress
each other with our hands.
Everything had seemed not merely normal but better than normal as he'd
undressed me, gently unbuttoning my sheer blouse and peeling off the tight
little miniskirt I'd worn. He'd caressed my body with such love, or at least,
that's how it had seemed. He'd gently touched every part of me from fingers to
toes as we'd played on my bed.
He'd said that he hungered for me, and I'd responded with such lust, pulling
him to me after I stripped off the last of his clothing. Would something as
simple as a condom have saved me? I'd cooperated with him; there was no doubt
about that. Worse than that, I'd enjoyed it even after I discovered that things
had gone awry.
That was the awful thing. Even now, the memory is pleasant, now that I know
exactly what he wanted from me
I can't help but enjoy it. After I'd undressed him, I'd pulled him to me on the
bed, thrusting my hips at him, lusting for his penis within me
He'd entered me swiftly, and it had been wonderful. I'd never had multiple
orgasms before, but that night I came as he entered me, and then I remember
coming again and again, long into the night.
I must have blacked out with the pleasure, because the next thing I remember
is the morning sun streaming in through my bedroom window. His penis was still
deep inside me, and I was in mid climax. I remember his smile after he climaxed,
and I remember eagerly clenching him to me with my legs, happy to keep him in me
as we relaxed.
He rolled off me without pulling free, then helped me up into a sitting
position on his hips. "Good morning," I remember saying. He smiled up at me as I
enjoyed the sensation of his penis within me
"Want to call in sick?" he'd asked, gently caressing my Massive breasts
with his fingertips.
I remember giggling as I sat on him, then calling the office from my bedside
phone
I didn't want to let him out of me, and as I talked to Jeanne at the office, I
remember idly rocking my hips on him, starting the two of us along the road to
another orgasm.
I was startled back from my memories by the feel of his thighs against my
cheeks. Was he walking? The rhythm was right, and then there was a pause and I
felt myself start to gag. I felt the familiar pressure in my throat and moments
later, I vomited. I was used to it, but it was horrible nonetheless. It wasn't
so much the taste of it as it was the thought. What was I throwing up, how was I
reduced? What could there possibly be left for me to throw up? He wiped my
mouth, and then I felt the pace of his walk again.
I returned to my dreams, remembering the moment I'd discovered that Ron had
trapped me
It had been shortly after I'd called the office, and we were talking quietly on
the bed, still locked together as we worked our way towards another orgasm. I'd
been on the bottom at the time, and I laughed as I pushed him up and rolled us
over so I was sitting on his hips.
"I've never met anyone who was so good at staying in a girl before," I'd
said, smiling down at him.
"It comes naturally with me," he'd said, returning my smile
"Want breakfast?" I'd asked, pulling away from him. I'd asked it more from
habit than from hunger, but as I pulled, I discovered that I couldn't pull free
of his penis.
"Hey! I'm stuck!" I remember saying.
"Yup," he'd said, still smiling, and then driving me to another orgasm. The
orgasm hadn't peaked like a normal one; instead, I remember it continuing to
rise in intensity forever, driving through my body with ever increasing waves of
pleasure, making any questions I might have seem completely irrelevant in the
face of such a total and immediate experience
How long did he keep me under? I can't say, but the next thing I remember, it
was dark outside as he held me in his arms. "You're still in me?" I remember
asking.
"We're joined forever," he'd said.
I remember laughing. "Don't joke," I'd said, "we've made love all day. Let's
take a break, wash up, go out for dinner."
"We can't," he'd said, and I lost track of time again as a wave of intense
pleasure swept from between my legs and crashed through me
He touched me, startling me back to the present as I felt his fingers on my
breasts. I felt myself ache with anticipation as he gently touched my sensitive
areolas. There was so little of me left that any touch, any sensory stimulus was
heavenly, and as his hands left my breasts and slid down what was left of my
chest to my clitoris, I lost all interest in what I was and how I'd gotten there
It was over too soon, though, and I thirsted for more
I was hungry for orgasm, and it wasn't the same anymore
Why? Was there too little of me left? I wanted the intense love Ron had given me
in our first days together, and he wouldn't or couldn't give it to me anymore
It took me a while to get over my disappointment, and then I drifted back to
dreaming. When had I first understood what Ron was doing to me? I remember
drifting back from an orgasm, lying face to face with him as I slid my hand down
his body to where our hips were joined.
I'd thought he was asleep at the time, so I slid my finger down between our
bodies to see if I could dislodge his penis. I remember being confused for a
moment about what I found. I couldn't find my vagina! Where his penis entered my
body, it had felt like his skin simply blended into mine
I remember finding my clitoris, and below it, the skin had simply folded back to
became the skin of his belly.
I don't think I screamed, but I remember gasping, startled, and then he'd
touched my arm and slid his hand down to join mine, feeling what I was feeling.
"It's fun, isn't it?" he'd asked, grinning.
"But how do we I" I'd begun to ask.
"We don't," he'd answered, pulling me to him and silencing me with a kiss as
he gave me yet another overwhelming orgasm.
"It is fun, isn't it?" he'd asked, when the orgasm ended.
"Yes," I'd said, terrified but speaking honestly.
"Good. It always is, you know."
"What's happening to me?" I asked.
"We're one, joined in body and soon in soul," he'd said, sliding his hand
down my side to my hip and then off.
I remember looking down at our hips some time later. I'd rolled myself, onto
him, it was daylight again, and I'd just called the office to say that I was
still very sick. That was the first time that I could really see that our bodies
were merging. The area of attachment between us had grown much larger than the
size of his penis, and as I looked down, I remember being startled to see the
smooth blending of our bodies.
Why didn't I object? Why did I call my office regularly, why didn't I
struggle? Looking back on it, there are so many things I could have done that
might have changed the outcome, but I'd done nothing.
Looking back on it, it's easier to measure time by how we were attached to
each other than by what day it was. For example, it wasn't until my thighs were
joined to him all the way to the knees that I asked why I wasn't hungry. It was
a question I should have asked far sooner, but it was hard to think coherently
when I was constantly interrupted by such glorious orgasms.
I was sitting on Ron when I asked the question. We were in what had come to
be our usual daytime resting position; he was on his back with me squatting over
him, my ankles by his hips and my knees beside his ribs. At first, there'd been
other possible positions, but once my thighs had begun to bond to him, it was
the only position.
"Why don't we eat?" I'd asked I idly traced a finger along the joint between
our bodies. "Shouldn't I be hungry? For that matter, why don't I need to go to
the bathroom?"
He'd smiled and pulled me to him to kiss me, then let his hands slide down my
chest to finger my breasts.
"I never eat," he'd answered. "Right now, I'm adsorbing you."
I remember wanting to scream as his answer hit home, but I knew that there
was no point to it, and he rewareded my patience by pulling me to him and gently
kissing me before bringing me to another orgasm.
He'd kept me up, cresting from one orgasm to another for what must have been
at least a full day after that, preventing me from asking questions or learning
more about my fate
At that point, I can't imagine that either of us had much left in the way of
genitals, other than my clitoris which was still exposed at the point where our
bodies joined, but it didn't seem to have any effect on my ability to experience
wonderfully intense orgasms.
My attention was wrenched back to the present by a growing pressure in my
throat. I had to vomit again. Judging by the feel of his thighs on my cheeks, he
was just sitting down, probably on the toilet. Why hadn't I noticed him walking
to the bathroom, had I slept? Had I been so intent on my memories? Quite some
time must have passed.
I vomited, and then, as he gently wiped my lips, I remembered the first time
it had happened. "You've got to go to the bathroom," he'd said, pulling me up
into a sitting position on him, then shifting his legs over the edge of the bed.
"It's OK, I know how to do this," he'd said, and then he'd stood up, holding his
hands under my armpits to support me as he carried me to the toilet.
His comment about my needing to go to the bathroom hadn't mad sense to me at
first. As far as I knew, I was incapable of it because he'd adsorbed that part
of me
I'd reached the point where my legs were almost gone
My hips emerged from the front of his, and somehow, it had begun to look almost
natural, as if we were supposed to be joined that way.
With the bulk of my legs gone, I guess I was easy to carry, and the way he
held me was even comfortable, but as he knelt by the toilet, I was overcome with
the need to vomit. It had started as a barely noticeable pressure in my gut, but
it expanded almost instantly into severe nausea. I remember him helping to turn
my head moments before I vomited, and then my memory fades. I have only dim
memories of the next few minutes, but it seemed that I emptied myself of gallons
of creamy yellow liquid before he helped me rinse my mouth and drink glass after
glass of water.
"Better?" I remember him asking as I recovered.
"Yes," I'd said, "but I feel dirty."
He'd smiled at me, then sat on the edge of the tub and began filling it. For
the next hour, I remember having a very enjoyable bath. I washed him, he washed
me, we combed each others' hair, and generally behaved like childish young
lovers, alternating useful cleaning with sex games.
It was like that for what could have been another week. I suspect that I was
physically addicted to the wonderful orgasms he could give me, and I suspect
that his body was taking control of my hormones, preventing me from feeling any
sense of panic, terror, or anger. Intellectually, by then, I'd gotten used to
being bound to him. I can't say that I accepted my fate, but I could face it
calmly. I remember feeling twinges of regret about projects I knew I'd never be
able to finish, but they were only twinges.
At night, we slept and made love, and during the daytime, we talked, danced,
made love, and kept the apartment in shape
A few times, very early in the morning, we'd even gone down to the apartment
mailbox and collected my mail, and then I remember spending enjoyable days
looking things over, paying bills, reading magazines, and generally, keeping up
the pretence that I was still a person.
I genuinely enjoyed that week, even as I noticed the changes in what was left
of my body. My waist grew slim, until it was no thicker than my neck, rising
from between his thighs almost like a huge penis. Ron never hesitated to let me
see what was happening to myself, but whenever I questioned it, whenever I
objected, he silenced me with his universal answer, another orgasm.
I was pulled back to reality by a splash of water on my mouth, and then the
water entered me briefly. What was it? I tried to guess what was going on, and
then it was obvious. Ron was taking a bath. I felt the water lap up over my
nipples, and then I felt his soapy hands slide over them as he relaxed in the
tub.
Another bath? How much time had passed? Why was he keeping my breasts? Why
wasn't he adsorbing my mouth and cheeks? For that matter, why was I still alive
at all? What perverse purpose was served by what was left of my body?
And then it dawned on me as his fingers slid down to my clitoris and touched
my lips. He was using me to become a female! The way he'd adsorbed my body had
let my chest fold back against his abdomen, with my head sinking slowly, over
the days, into his crotch. Now, my mouth was where a vagina belongs, my chin was
becoming his pubic bone, my clitoris was almost in place, slipping slowly
towards my lips, and I suddenly knew that my breasts were sliding slowly up his
body to grace his chest.
I felt a wave of anger, but I was horny; it had been a long time since I'd
had an orgasm, and he gave me one, sliding his hand to what had been my chin,
pressing on my clitoris, then sliding a finger to my mouth where I kissed it. He
drove me to an orgasm, but it seemed like a hollow ring of what I wanted. Deep
in what was left of me, I felt a growing hunger for something more
I felt his touch again as he toweled himself dry, and then I felt his thighs
move against me as he walked to bed. What would Ron call himself as a woman, I
wondered. He'd never told me more than Ron, and that could as easily be Ronda as
Ronald. What would Ron do as a woman?
The answer to the last question swept over me without warning. Ron was
hungry, it was time to find a new person to consume
That explained my own deep hunger, and for a moment, the thought froze in my
mind. Part of me wanted to die before participating in such an awful act. I
wanted no part in consuming Ron's next victim. Or did I? Ron didn't victimize
people, when Ron consumed someone, it was a wonderful experience, and I suddenly
felt certain that part of every person Ron had ever consumed was still there,
somehow, inside him the way I was inside him.
I drifted off to a dreamless sleep, and then it was morning. I knew it was
morning even before I felt anything, and then I felt motion against my cheeks,
and I knew it was time go get out of bed. What had changed? The answer came to
me not as words, but as certain knowledge
My brain was being consumed. It was now attached to his nervous system, being
blended into him as thoroughly as my body had been blended with his body, and
there was nothing I could do to stop it.
I still had no sensation other than on my breasts, clitoris, lips and cheeks,
but I knew. It was morning, Ron walked over to my bedroom mirror and looked at
the reflection there
I knew that Ron was a beautiful woman, slim, intensely desirable, and hungry for
a man. I knew that Ron stood in front of the mirror approving her looks as she
combed her hair. I suddenly knew that it had been a full month since Ron had
started consuming me! It had been August when we'd met, now it was September.
Ron walked to my closet and began to consider my clothing, pulling out
dresses and looking at them. I felt it as she pulled on a skirt, and suddenly,
it came over me that she was pulling on the very skirt I'd worn on that fateful
evening when we'd met.
I felt the skirt slide tightly over what had been the skin of my neck and
cheeks, but now that skin was on her belly and fanny, and then I felt the light
touch of a blouse against my breasts. Was it the same sheer blouse I'd worn that
night a month ago?
It was, I knew it, and I was powerless to do anything about it. I knew that
Ron was stepping into my shoes, and then she stood at the mirror, admiring
herself as she buttoned my blouse and tucked it into the elastic waistband of my
skirt. She turned, smiled at her profile, then decided to shorten the skirt,
pulling the elastic fabric up a few inches and turning the excess under at the
waist.
Suddenly, I understood that the woman Ron had become looked like me
Ron had lost weight, moulding her body until it had my proportions, sculpting
her face to have my looks, and even changing her voice to be my voice
Had she done it deliberately or was it a natural consequence of consuming me?
I could feel her hunger for a man, and I knew that hunger. I was
desperate
for the orgasms I knew she could give, I was desperate to feel a man's penis
within my mouth, and I felt no remorse
Part of me wanted me to feel remorse, part of me wanted me to feel angry, but I
couldn't.
She took a last look in the mirror, admiring the way my blouse almost hid my
breasts, yet drew attention to them by the very fact that they weren't entirely
hidden. She checked the hemline of my skirt, noting that it was almost
indecently short, then she reached down and gently patted what had been my chin.
"Cheryl Anne Smith, let's go get us a man," she said. I didn't hear the
words, but I knew what she was saying.
We walked out of my apartment, and I knew that we'd never return. I wondered
how she'd go about adsorbing a man, and she answered my question, letting the
knowledge flood into my mind. She'd adsorbed countless men in her long life
If a man chose to have sex with her orally, she could adsorb him head first,
allowing her to keep his legs and genitals and adsorb her own if she wanted.
If she had conventional intercourse with a man, she could adsorb him the way
she'd adsorbed me
She preferred to do it that way because it was more fun, allowing for weeks of
pleasant conversation and play. The knowledge washed over me
I knew that the middle weeks were best. The first week with a new partner was
solid orgasm, a necessary part of taming her victim. Then there were two weeks
of fun, and finally, a week of adsorbing the last of her partner and preparing
for the next.
While I grappled with this flood of knowledge, I knew that she was walking
down the street, enjoying the approving glances of the men she passed on the
sidewalk, drawing on centuries of experience in the art of attracting a new
partner.
It was important to find the right man, someone who could provide a secure
house for a month, someplace where there wouldn't be any interruptions. I knew
that physical security wasn't enough, though. She wanted company while she
adsorbed her next partner, so she needed a man she could like, someone fun to
talk to. If she liked her partner enough, I knew that she'd keep part of him and
integrate it into her own personality.
Was that what she was doing with me? The answer was obvious even before the
question came to mind. Yes. Part of me wanted to back out, to die, to accept any
end other than merger with this monster that consumed people
I knew what she was doing, though, I knew that she was slowly digesting that
part of me, burning my flesh for energy until all that remained offered no
resistance to a complete merger.
It was still before noon, and I felt her decide to visit the university. She
walked there, arriving around lunchtime, and then she took a seat on a bench in
the shade of an old oak tree
I knew this without seeing. I could feel the bench pressing comfortably against
what had been my cheeks as she relaxed and watched the early fall crowds on the
campus sidewalks, but it seemed like I could feel more, my sensation wasn't
confined to what had been my own skin.
I knew that she didn't want a student, students couldn't meet her need for
privacy and security during the time it took to adsorb them. She wanted a single
faculty member, or even better, someone from the research staff, someone who
lived alone but was old enough to own a small house
Her glance fell on a good prospect, and she smiled politely as her eyes met
his. I could feel the anticipation as he walked over to talk, and even though I
couldn't see him, I knew that he was wonderful looking, a man to lust after.
As they talked, he mentioned his roommate, and that made him a poor prospect.
Part of me cheered as a victim escaped, but that part felt smaller every time I
noticed it. The larger part of me shared her disappointment as the man got up to
leave
More and more, it was our shared hunger that I felt, not her hunger but ours.
As afternoon came, we met others, and our feeling of need heightened. I knew
that Ron could adsorb any mammal, in desperation, but she preferred to hunt by
stealth, finding partners she could enjoy instead of merely flesh to consume
How had she begun? There was no answer. Her oldest memories were only a few
centuries old, and there were few from before my lifetime
She was a composite of her partners, yet there must have been something from
before
I slowly became conscious of the fact that others among her many partners had
speculated about what she was, and none of them had ever found a good answer.
My attention was pulled back to the present. She'd caught sight of a man I
recognized, Roger Stearns. I'd dated him a few times and gone to bed with him
once
A tiny part of me wanted to yell at him to turn away, but he was such a nice
guy, such a good lover, and there was nothing I could do.
"Roger?" I called, as the last shred of resistance fell away from me
He turned my way and then looked surprised. "Cheryl?"
"That's me!" I said, getting up from the bench and walking up to him.
"I heard you were sick," he said, looking concerned.
"I was," I said, smiling, rewarding him for his concern. "I was out of work
for a month, but I'm OK now."
I knew what Roger liked. I knew him, and I'd had years, lifetimes of
experience with other men like him. In no time, he offered to drive me to his
place for dinner. All the while, his eyes were on me, entranced by my face, by
my short skirt, and by my breasts. In the car on the way to his house, I set my
hand on his thigh, and by the time we reached his house, he'd already found out
that I didn't have on any underwear.
"Want to make love before we eat?" I suggested as he held open the door for
me
He said nothing, but led me into his loft bedroom and pulled back the
bedspread from the satin sheets covering his waterbed. The feeling of
anticipation sweeping through me was intense as I helped him undress, and as I
freed his penis, I kissed it, full in the knowledge that if I wanted to, I could
join with him right then and adsorb him through my mouth.
That wouldn't be fun, though, so even as the animal deep within me called on
me to bond with him on the spot, I pulled back and finished undressing him, then
let the desire build to almost orgasmic intensity as he undressed me
We laughed as he sat in the centre of his waterbed and invited me into his lap,
and then I came to him, squatting over him and taking his penis into me
We bonded as he entered, and then I sat in his lap, gently stroking his
wonderful body, content in the knowledge that it was now mine
My clitoris pressed firmly against his pubic bone, sending a thrill through my
body, and then I pulled him to me and kissed him as we shared what I knew was
only the first of many wonderful orgasms.
I was walking across campus on my way home from the lab when someone called
my name
"Roger?" It was a familiar voice, a woman, but in the crowds of students filling
the sidewalks, it took me a moment to see who'd called.
Then I saw Cheryl Smith, one of the most beautiful women I've ever met.
"Cheryl!" I called.
"That's me," she said, getting up and walking over to me
God, she was beautiful, and she certainly wasn't shy about it. She was wearing a
tiny elastic miniskirt that hardly covered her crotch and a nearly transparent
blouse that covered but hardly hid her breasts.
"I heard you were sick," I said, remembering what Jim Davis had mentioned
over coffee two weeks before
"I was," she said, smiling warmly. "I was out of work for a month, but I'm OK
now."
"Good," I said, "Jim mentioned that he'd heard it was pretty bad."
"Don't worry," she said, and then rested her hand on mine
"It's been a lonely month, though, and you know what? I was just thinking about
you, about the last time!"
The last time
We'd only been out on three dates together, but somehow, on the last one we'd
ended up in bed. Cheryl had turned out to be as good in bed as I could have
hoped, but somehow, we'd never managed to get back together after that.
"Want to come over for dinner?" I suggested, acting on impulse
"Sure," she said, smiling as she stood there in front of me
"Where's your car?"
"In the West Engineering parking structure," I said. I'd meant to try to set
a dinner date some time later in the week, but I didn't mind her
misinterpretation.
She walked ahead of me at first, making it easy for me to admire her long
legs and tight fanny. Her almost transparent blouse flowed loosely with the
motion of her body, and she occasionally turned to smile at me as she walked,
giving me glimpses of her beautiful breasts.
She held my hand as we approached the parking structure, and somehow, walking
hand-in-hand with her was almost magical. We weren't just walking together, we
were dancing. Dancing hand in hand, side by side
When she was close, she let her breast gently nudge my arm. When there was room,
she danced along at arm's length, smiling happily at me as I watched the gentle
bounce and sway of her breasts.
She got in the car with me, and as I drove out of the garage, she sat close
to me with a hand on my thigh. It wasn't long before my hand was on her bare
thigh, and she held it there with her other hand as we drove
"You're acting pretty horny," I said.
"I am," she answered, sliding her hand up my thigh and letting a finger slip
between my legs to rest on the soft bulge of my penis. "And you?"
Of course I was horny, in an abstract way, but as her finger touched the
crotch of my pants, the abstract became very concrete
I slid my hand up her thigh to answer her gesture, and where I expected to find
panties, I found smooth skin.
By the time we reached my house, I was ready to make love on the spot. As I
let her inside, Cheryl began unbuttoning her blouse
I led her up the steps to the loft, pulled back the bedspread, and turned to
her. She fell into my arms, kissing me full on the mouth, then started to
unbutton my shirt. While I held her to me, part of me was curious to learn why
she was so anxious to get me into bed, but mostly, I was swept away with
anticipation.
She gently pulled my shirt from my shoulders, then undid the button at my
waist and unzipped my pants. As she freed my penis, she took it into her mouth,
plunging her head over it, threatening to drive me to a premature orgasm, and
then she pulled free and grinned up at me
I sat on the padded edge of my waterbed while she pulled off my sandals and
finished taking off my pants, and then she stood in front of me while I finished
unbuttoning her blouse and pulled the smoky grey fabric from her. I slid her
tight elastic skirt down over her hips, and then she grinned as I gently slid my
finger over the clean-shaven skin of her crotch.
I rolled onto the bed and sat in the
centre, cross legged, and she
understood, crawling out to meet me
My penis stood out between my legs, hard with anticipation. She knelt over me,
holding my shoulders to brace herself against the gentle bounce of the waterbed,
and then she kissed me before she fell into my lap, thrusting herself down over
my penis and laughing with joy as she wrapped her legs around my hips.
She almost drove me to a premature orgasm as she engulfed me, and then we sat
there, hugging and kissing as she gently rocked her hips on me, grinding her
clit against me as the look on her face changed from bliss to intense pleasure
She laced her fingers together behind my neck and leaned back, looking intensely
into my eyes as I held her breasts. I could resist no longer! I felt myself
explode within her, pulsating, riding the crest of orgasm as she rocked her hips
on my lap and moaned with her own pleasure
She hugged me tightly for a long time as she sat in my lap, and then she
leaned back, fingers laced behind my neck as she smiled up at me
"I like your waterbed and satin sheets," she said.
The sensation of my still half-erect penis burried deep in her body was
indescribably good. I didn't want it to end, but I felt obliged to be a good
host. "Thanks. Want to get off me so I can whip up dinner for us? We can always
fool around some more afterwards if you want."
She smiled at me, but there was something almost sad looking about her face
"Roger Stearns, I've got a thing or two to tell you."
"What?" I asked.
"I can't get off you," she said. "We're stuck together."
"What?" I asked. There was no way I could believe what she said, but at the
same time, the tone of her voice and the intense look on her face made it clear
that she was very serious.
"We don't have any choice in the matter," she said. "Try to pull out of me if
you want, but I guarantee you that you won't be able to."
I tried to lift her off me, but my penis was locked tightly into her. She
cooperated, lifting herself slightly as I slid a finger between us. My penis was
stretched tightly, locked somewhere deep inside her, and I couldn't budge it.
"What the hell?" I asked.
She grinned ruefully. "Try to pull free, try hard. See what you can do to
free yourself."
I pushed her onto her back and tried to lift my hips. I can't say how, but as
I pulled, the sensation in my penis was incredibly sexual, and before I could
accomplish anything, I found myself thrusting myself deep into Cheryl, pulling
her to me as she squirmed with pleasure beneath me
The intense pressure of an orgasm came over me suddenly, and then it washed
through my body as I pumped myself deeply into her.
Unlike any orgasm I can remember, it continued, sweeping me away, taking my
self-control, until I was exhausted, barely able to think, and unable to
continue any effort to pull free of Cheryl. It took me a long time to recover
enough to think about what had happened, and longer to rouse enough energy to
move or speak.
"Cheryl Smith," I finally said, "you've got a lot of explaining to do." I was
lying spent beside her on my bed, still locked into her, with one hand between
us exploring where my penis entered her vagina.
She smiled whist
fully at me
"I was sick for the last month, you know, and now, you've caught it. A condom
would have saved you. A guy named Ron caught me a month ago; he locked into me
just the way you're locked in. Every time I tried to pull away, it ended in
orgasm. The harder I tried to resist, the more pleasure he gave me
Now it's your turn."
I stared at her, not wanting to believe what she said, but she offered me no
choice
The experience of the last few minutes was enough to convince me that she spoke
the truth.
"What happened to Ron," I asked.
"You should ask, what happened to Cheryl," she said. "I look like her, I have
all her memories, but mostly, the resemblance is superficial."
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
She smiled, with a sad look in her eyes. "I'm telling you what you need to
know. For most purposes, Cheryl's dead. This thing that I am is a monster,
something out of a horror movie, a venerial disease
It's old, older than I know, and it eats people
Ron was a victim, Cheryl was a victim, and now you're going to be a victim. If
all goes as it has for as long as I can remember, a month from now, Roger
Stearns will have been consumed; what remains of him will be a part of me"
I laughed, trying to shrug off what she was saying. "Come off it! How do you
expect me to believe that kind of nonsense"
"What you believe doesn't matter," she said. "It's happening, though, and I
can't change the outcome
What I can do is try try to make it more fun for you by giving you a chance to
participate more fully. Cheryl had fun while I consumed her, Ron had fun when I
consumed him, all the memories I have are of happy endings, but I think I can
make it even better. I know you pretty well, and all my other victims were
strangers, at least as far as I can remember."
"So why did you pick me," I asked.
"I didn't pick you," she said. "You were thereI No, that's not entirely true
I spent the day talking to men, trying to find someone who could provide shelter
for the month it takes me to consume a victim, and you were the first man to
come along who met my criteria. I'm glad you came along, though, because I do
like you alot. As long as I'm doomed to consume people, I may as well have fun
while I'm doing it.
I stared at her as a sense of unreality swept over me
"What do you mean about consuming me
Surely you aren't going to eat me"
"In a sense," she said, still smiling, gently rocking her hips against mine
as she lay there, then rolling me onto my back and swinging herself into a
sitting position on my hips.
She smiled down at me and gently stroked my chest before she continued.
"Eating's the wrong word, though. Neither of us will eat again. Once the bond
between us is solid, I'll begin adsorbing you through it. I have some control
over what I adsorb and how; if I do a bad job and pick someone I can't get along
with, I have to adsorb their brain first and then spend a lonely month with
their mindless body hanging from me
If I make a good choice, like I did with Cheryl, I'll keep them intact as long
as possible so I can enjoy their company."
As she talked, she rocked her hips gently on mine and stroked my chest. By
the time she reached the end of the last sentence, I was rising to an orgasm,
and as she stopped talking, an intensely happy look swept over her face
I came, pumping deep into her, swept away with her into the perfect world of
orgasm.
"It's good, isn't it," she asked, still squatting over my hips as I recovered
from the orgasm.
"Yes," I said.
"It's nice being able to talk this way so soon," she said. "For all the
victims I can remember, I had to keep them under for most of a week before we
could talk much, but before you, as far as I know, I've never consumed a friend,
someone I knew pretty well before we started."
"I'm not sure I want to be such a willing victim," I said, relaxing under her
with my head cradled on my hands.
"I know," she said. "But you haven't got much choice in the matter. If you
resist, you'll have an orgasm that ends your resistance, and you'll enjoy it. I
think my body makes tranquilizing chemicals to keep us calm, and I know that
whatever part of your mind tries to resist will be the first part to be
destroyed as I adsorb you.
"What choice do you have?" I asked, trying to turn the tables.
"Not much," she said. "I've got to eat, if I don't, I start digesting myself,
and then I get desparate and go after anybody. It's far more pleasant to go
after someone who's company I enjoy. I use orgasm to control my victims, but
it's far more fun to make love to my victims than to masturbate them into
submission."
I began to hit on an idea. "Cheryl, if I can call you that, there've been a
few times in the last few minutes where you've hinted that you didn't remember
lots of things. Why not. Who are you?"
"You can call me Cheryl, there's a good part of her preserved in me," she
said, and then her smile turned to a frown. "As to who I am, I'm not really sure
All my memories are the memories of my victims, or the memories of those parts
of their brains I've adsorbed. In a way, I guess I'm mostly a composite of my
victims bodies and minds, plus what must be some small part that makes me what I
am."
"If that's true," I said, frowning as I tried to concentrate, "then do you
really want to keep eating more people?"
She was still sitting on me, and her face suddenly shifted from a serious
look to a look of transcendant pleasure as an orgasm swept through her. Her hips
rocked convulsively on top of mine, sweeping me away with her. My penis throbbed
within her, I pulled her down to me, kissing her, hugging her, and all the
while, thrusting my hips against hers as I rode the crest of orgasm.
It was dark out when I finally pulled myself together enough to speak to her
of anything, and it was a while before I came back to the thread of our
interrupted conversation.
"I asked you if you really wanted to keep adsorbing people," I said, gently
holding her as we lay face to face beside each other.
"No," she said, and her hips began to thrust at me
"I can't help it, though. Every part of me, every victim I know of reached the
point where they'd rather die than participate in this, but I" she stopped,
gasping with the pleasure of another orgasm, and then I was swept away.
The orgasms were a obviously a
defence
She'd said that she used them to tranquilize her victims, but they controlled
her too. By morning, after a night of short conversations punctuated by
incredibly intense orgasms and long peaceful recoveries, I'd learned that she
wanted to find a way to stop consuming the people around her, even if it meant
an end to her life
As the early morning light swept through the skylight over my waterbed, she
told me everything she could about the mechanics of consuming her victims, how
she adsorbed them, how the waste products of her metabolism were stored in the
body cavity of the victim and occasionally eliminated through whatever body
opening remained available, and how she controlled which parts were adsorbed in
what order.
"Right now," she said. "I haven't really started adsorbing you. All I've done
is burn some of your fat, but that's no loss. I suppose that if I wanted I could
even initiate the adsorbtion in my own body instead of in yours, though I don't
remember ever doing it."
"If you did," I said, feeling inspired, "could you arrange it so you died, so
that all that's left when it's over is me?"
"I think so," she said, smiling. She pulled me to her and kissed me, we made
love, and for the first time since she'd joined me in my bed, it was love, not
her desire to tame me or the strange way her body saved her from self
destruction. It was joyous love, but slow. We kissed, hugged, and touched while
the tension built and the glow slowly spread to my hips. I began thrusting my
penis into her as she pulled against me
I was swept away with glorious love as we climaxed, and, though the climax
seemed like it would last forever, it never stole my rationality or clouded my
mind.
I still wondered about the strange way I was bound to her, and I was curious
to understand why I never felt the need to get up from the bed. We made love
over and over, rolling from one position to another and resting between sessions
of lovemaking as we talked. Mostly, Cheryl told me about the people she'd
consumed. I knew quite a bit about Cheryl, but there were others, Ron, Mary,
Steve and so many more
She only knew snatches about some of them; with others, she could recall a
lifetime of detail, and others had been totally forgotten, completely consumed
with not even a souvenir to remind her of who they'd been.
"Roger," she said, sometime during our second evening together. She paused,
and then started over. "Roger, I've done it. My body is starting to adsorb
itself, you'll survive"
She hugged me, rolled onto me, and rested her head on my shoulder, then drew
a ragged breath. "It's kind of sad, in a way, I'm going to die, and until now,
I've had a strange kind of immortality in this hellish but fun life that I've
been living. I'm glad we found a way to do it, though, and at least, it'll be a
fun ending."
I held her. There was nothing I could say. I felt a tear drip onto my
shoulder. She drew another ragged breath, and then sighed, relaxing against me
for a long time before she began gently thrusting her hips, drawing strength and
comfort from the simple sexual pleasure that we shared. I helped, meeting her
thrusts with my hips, helping her on the long slow rise to an orgasm. When it
came, it was what I needed, not intense, but slow and gentle, a comforting
feeling of pleasure pulsating from between my thighs as we hugged and pressed
our bodies together.
The next morning, as she sat on my hips, I called in to work and told them
that I'd have to take a month or so of sick leave
I fibbed, telling them that I had mono, and then hung up the phone as Cheryl
rewarded my fib with an intense but short orgasm.
--
Cheryl told me everything that would happen before it happened, but it was
still a shock over the next few days as the bond between our bodies grew from
just my penis to a broad connection joining her fanny to my hips. She made an
effort to spend as much time as possible squatting on my hips with her knees
under my elbows, explaining that that position led to the most enjoyable bond
that she'd found.
"Can you lift me out of bed?" she asked. It was the afternoon of our fourth
day together, and her thighs were starting to bond to my ribs.
"I think so," I said, shifting my weight as I sat up. I swung us around until
my feet were over the edge of the bed, and then paused. She was beautiful lying
on my thighs and looking up at me, and I absently ran my fingers up and down her
sides, from hips to breasts, befor continuing with the job of getting us out of
bed.
"OK," I said, once I'd managed to lift us into a standing position. Her
fingers were laced behind my neck, supporting her body, and I leaned back
against her weight and tried briefly to support her fanny, that is, until I
realized that it needed no support.
"Where to?" I asked.
"The bathroom," she said, "then the kitchen. You don't need to eat, you can
live for a month adsorbing me, but you've got to keep your digestive system
running. While we're at it, we could probably use a bath, and although I don't
really need to wretch yet, it'll probably help if I unload what I've got."
I sat on the toilet for what must have been half-an-hour before I managed to
pass what was in my bowels, then she asked me to hold her over the toilet so she
could wretch. It was awful watching her heave, and the gob of thick yellow stuff
that came out of her mouth was disgusting enough that if I'd had anything in my
stomach, I think I'd have thrown up.
"Are you OK?" I asked as I helped her back into a sitting position in my lap.
"Sure," she said, licking her lips. "You look awful. Don't take it so hard."
"But that stuff, it's so gross."
"Actually, it tastes pretty good. It's not surprising. Think about it, it
takes me a month to consume a person, and that comes to about five pounds of
flesh and bone a day. That's too much to nourish a person, so I must not be very
efficient, as carnivores go. I bet the yellow stuff is loaded with nutrients,
probably fat and protein."
From then on, we made a daily habit of a trip to the bathroom and then the
kitchen. I never felt hungry, but she made me eat something every day, with
emphasis not on nutrition, but on roughage to keep my plumbing in order. Our
baths were fun times to explore our slowly merging bodies, and no matter what we
did, it was punctuated with orgasms, every change of subject, every move from
room to room, every shift of posture drove us to orgasm. It wasn't empty sex; as
the days passed, a deeply shared bond of love grew between us.
By the end of our first week together, the bond between Cheryl's body and
mine had spread until it reached her toes, binding them to the sides of my hips.
The changes were gradual, but I could see that her thighs were shrinking into my
body and her waist was becoming slimmer. The result could have looked
monstrous, but it didn't. Cheryl remained a pretty woman even as she sank into
my body, and I found that I liked the way we looked together.
Every day, she vomited out more of her substance, and I regretted every ounce
of yellow goo that I flushed down the toilet. She continued to assure me that it
didn't taste bad; she said that it wasn't unpleasant to vomit it out, but that
didn't make it any better.
We were talking about it a few hours after we'd made our daily trip to the
toilet. "It's almost orgasmic when I vomit, you know," she said. "If you'd help,
it would be orgasmic. That's how it always ends up, but if you work at it, you
can make it more fun sooner."
I pulled her to me and kissed her as we walked back from the kitchen to my
living room. Her legs were almost gone, and between her weight loss and my
experience balancing her, it was becoming easy to walk around with her.
I sat down on the couch, still kissing her, and then leaned back to speak.
"Mabe I'd have an easier time dealing with your vomit if I had a taste of the
stuff. You keep telling me it tastes OK."
"Here," she said, pulling her face to mine
Our orgasms had changed. Her hips were firmly bonded to mine, with her back
emerging from where my penis had been. My penis was gone, and all that remained
of her genitals was the bump of her clitoris where her belly emerged from mine
I couldn't thrust into her, she couldn't engulf me, but we still shared sex,
somehow, and it was better when I stroked the joint between our bodies as we
came
I began to stroke her, feeling the rising tension of our coming orgasm, and
then it washed over and through me as she pulled herself against me, her body
pulsating with pleasure as the waves swept through her. At the very climax, as
we kissed open mouthed, her mouth filled with something that tasted rich and
salty, but slightly bitter.
It was surprisingly good, good enough that swallowing was natural and we
never broke our kiss. With each slow wave of delightful contraction that swept
through us, she delivered another small portion of the stuff into my mouth. Each
time, I swallowed; it was such a perfect completion of our love that I hardly
had to think about it.
That started a habit that lasted for the next month. From then on, every time
we made love, we kissed, and as she came to an orgasm, I drank from her lips.
After trying it only once, it seemed more than natural, it was necessary. Her
vomit was my nectar.
It was soon after that that she noticed that her adsorbtion wasn't following
the expected course
"Roger," she said one morning, sitting up on me, if you could call it that,
while I lay in bed, "I'm not being adsorbed as quickly as I expected."
"Any idea why?" I asked, looking up at her. There was nothing left of her
hips and legs, and I could see that she was getting thin. Her long thin waist
rose from my groin before expanding into her beautiful and very feminine thorax.
"Well, it's all going differently from what I'm used to. I mean, vomiting
every day has made changes gradual that used to be sudden, and now that you're
drinking it, I think you must be adsorbing me more efficiently; perhaps that'll
make me last longer."
Three weeks after she bound herself to me, it was obvious that lasting longer
wasn't the same as lasting forever. She'd grown perilously thin, and her ribcage
had begun to collapse
She didn't need to breathe, I could breathe enough for the two of us, and she
was finding it harder and harder to talk. Her waist was so thin that it looked
like a huge penis standing between my legs, and more and more, she relied on her
arms to support her weight as we moved around.
"Roger, I don't think I'll be able to speak anymore," she said, drawing a
short breath before each word. "I love you."
She kissed me
I held her, gently sliding my hands over her back where it arched from my groin,
bringing us to a slow but wonderful climax, drinking her nectar, and then
holding her for a long time
Her chest finished its collapse fairly quickly after that, but her arms were
still strong and she was still intensely fun. We could still communicate, she
could form words with her lips, and she could type
We spent long hours fooling with my Mac. I used the computer to try to keep up
with things at work, and it wasn't hard for me to talk her into using the
computer to write up her story. It turned out that she was a pretty good writer,
better than I ever hope to be
I was worried that her breasts would disappear as her chest collapsed, but
they lasted until near the end, very kissable, and very much a part of our
lovemaking. Her body shrank to a long column the size of her neck, stretching
from where my penis had been to her head, decorated by a single two-nippled
breast just below where her arms branched off.
Her heart was obviously gone by then, and over a period of a week, her arms
began to bond to the sides of the column that had been her thorax. At first, it
was just her upper arms and she could still finger me with her forearms, but
then they bonded in place, leaving her fingers briefly on my groin before they
too began to dissapear.
By that time, I'd become pretty good at reading her lips. We'd just finished
a bath, and after I toweled us dry, I walked over to the full- length mirror to
look at us, turning first one way and then the other as we looked at what had
happened to us.
"You're pretty nice looking," she mouthed, then grinned. "I think the turn of
phrase is well hung. I'm becoming your penis, you know, my nectar is your
ejaculate, and when we make love, the way you run your hands up and down me,
it's just masturbation."
I honestly hadn't noticed, but she was right.
With the loss of her arms, her body had been reduced to a long neck
connecting her head and groin. At first, she still had bones in her neck, but
they didn't last long. As her neck became flaccid, I began to notice that it was
erectile, stiffening when we made love
She really was becoming my penis.
We still love, though; it wasn't masturbation. She demanded to be kissed, she
needed to be touched, she returned my love with full spirit even as what was
left of her body diminished.
Every day, her neck grew shorter and thinner. Her clitoris began a slow
migration up towards her nipples, and my skin followed. As her neck shortened
her breasts slid upwards, always staying within reach of my lips until her
nipples merged with her lips. It was nice making love with her that way, holding
her head so she could kiss my nipples, stretching her elastic neck so I could
kiss her, feeling her neck expand and stiffen with our erection, and then
stroking it until we came and I drank her nectar.
Her head began to shrink, yet she was still lucid. Her eyes disappeared from
her face, her nose closed up, yet for days, she could still shape words of love
with her lips, and we continued to talk with each other, laughing over childhood
memories, and always, making love
"I think my brain's mostly gone," she mouthed one evening as we rested after
a sweet hour of lovemaking. "Good bye, and I love you."
Those were her last words. I kissed her and brought her to another orgasm,
one that swept me into dreamland until morning. When daylight came, I half
expected her to be gone, but she wasn't. Her head was gone, but the stalk that
was either the remains of her body or my penis was tipped by a pair of very
expressive lips, and and surprisingly, they still responded. I pulled them to
mine in memory of her, and when I kissed them, they returned the kiss eagerly.
The very last thing she lost was the ability to make love to me
For two days, her lips sat on the end of what more and more resembled a penis,
and for two days, I made love to them, kissing them, letting them kiss me,
stroking what was more and more my penis, masturbating, and drinking the nectar
that still flowed from between her lips.
The opening of her mouth shrank, but it remained a kissable mouth until my
penis shrank to the point that I couldn't kiss it anymore
Then, all too predictably and in only a day, what had been her lips, her
clitoris, and her nipples shrank into the very normal looking end of a long but
rapidly shrinking penis.
I was desperately lonely. I missed Cheryl's company, I missed making nearly
continuous love to her, and I felt empty. It had been almost two months of
pleasure that Cheryl had given me, and now she was dead, by her own choice
I comforted myself with the fact that at least I had none of her memories, and
better yet, as far as I knew, I'd escaped her monster.
I mourned the end of Cheryl for a day, but I was just about out of food, so I
decided to go to work in the morning and go grocery shopping on the way home
At the lab, everyone told me I looked good, they welcomed me back, and Steve
Jenkens thanked me for the work I'd managed to do while I was out.
It felt good to have such attention, very good. I felt painfully lonely
without Cheryl; I needed someone to make love to; I needed someone to share my
life with. When Jeanne welcomed me back to work, I couldn't resist her offers of
comfort and sympathy. We ended up spending most of the day together, and she
invited me over to her place for dinner after work. Jeanne was beautiful, warm,
and funny, and I wondered why I'd never felt so attracted to her before
I went home after work, took a shower, and drove over to Jeanne's place for
dinner. She met me at the door to her apartment wearing the sexiest thing I'd
ever seen on her, a strapless black leather top with a skirt that was slit to
the hip. Sitting across from her at dinner, I was fascinated.
After we ate, she put on a CD of dance music and we danced in her living
room. Why was I so stupid! Why didn't I understand what was going on! As we
danced, she pulled me to her, advertising that she wanted to make love by the
way she held me and by the way she moved her body against mine
I could feel my hard penis pressing against her, and then she pulled back and
slid her hand down to caress it. She smiled at me, pulled me to her, and kissed
me, then unzipped my pants and pulled out my erect penis. She giggled, holding
it in her hand as we danced, and then she knelt during a pause in the music and
let it slide into her mouth.
I tried to pull out as soon as I realized what was happening, but I couldn't
do it. Each time I pulled, each time she tried to let go, we were both overcome
overcome by an intense wave of orgasmic pleasure
Jeanne looked so helpless with her lips locked around my penis. She couldn't
speak, she could hardly breathe, and it seemed like an eternity that I had to
look down at her helpless eyes before she finally passed out. God, how I wish I
could join her in unconsciousness. How did Cheryl control the thing, how did she
make it kill her and not me, I want to die and I don't know how to do it!
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